So on a much needed break from work, and life in general...I feel like I just woke up...like the last while has just been another horrible dream. I realized today that life is made up of 2 kinds of people, those who fear that their past will repeat itself and those who learn from their past; take the good and run with it & leave the rest behind. I have been the first of these 2 for quite sometime...now, I am choosing to be the later. I really needed this weekend, I had the opportunity to meet (somewhat) a man that brought me faith and hope that I have desperately been searching for, idk how he did it but he did. I believe we meet everyone for a reason, I hope that I am able to continue getting to know him...but since I still had my head up my butt...and was a scared pitiful girl, I screwed it up...no surprise if you know me~I take anything good and have a way of completely jacking it up...but he opened my eyes and made me realize in more detail, exactly what I want and who I want to be. If nothing else, I know I met him in order to learn more about me and what will bring me Eternal happiness. I hope I have a chance to bring him some happiness in his life as well. I am also very grateful for another friend of mine...who with much love...in a nutshell...told me to GET OVER IT! Basically get over myself! Stop the Pity Party and MOVE ON! I SOOOOOO needed this! So thank you to both of you! :)

since feeling is first

since feeling is first

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
- the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for each other; then
laugh, leaning back in my armsf
or life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis

e. e. cummings